So, it seems like we must be doing Shabbat wrong. Because I'm sure that it's not supposed to be a day where you look at the clock wondering when it will end. That's Yom Kippur!
Basically, the problems are:
(1) My school week is Sunday through Thursday, as is the girls'.
(2) All the stores close by 3 on Friday and don't open again till Sunday.
(3) Josh works Friday nights.
(4) We don't have a group of friends with kids yet for weekend playdates.
So I get home tired and sweaty from a field trip every Thursday night. Friday (my only real day "off") is the day we run around (with the kids) doing shopping and errands so we can be sure to have food to last us till Sunday morning. Friday afternoon, I hang with the kids while Josh works, and then sometimes sneak out to services. Saturday morning, Viv and I go to services while Josh and Cass stay home. Then we basically have 8 hours to fill till bedtime. It's been crazy hot, so outdoor activities are hard with the kids during the day. So unless we have a Shabbat lunch or something, we basically hang out annoying each other all day. As soon as the kids are in bed, it's time to do my homework, since a brand new week starts at 8:30 AM Sunday.
I realize that the answer to this is planning. We may soon get a long term car rental, since part of the problem is that by the time we realize we'd like to get out of town, we can no longer rent one. And now that I'll no longer be required to attend services at HUC every Saturday, we will have a bit more freedom to get out of town. But we're working so hard during the week that planning a trip seems like ONE MORE THING, and wouldn't necessarily leave us feeling more rested. Shabbat just isn't feeling like a day of rest right now. It feels like something to overcome, and that's not what I want. I know we'll figure it out, and soon the girls will have friends who we can get together with on the weekends, which should help a lot. But for now, the lack of Shabbat in my Shabbat is making me grouchy.
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